Dear Grandpa,

Life has gotten a lot better. Isaac & I are dating & I honestly can't remember being happier. I wish you could meet him. He's Catholic & charming & goofy & completely amazing. He's been a huge part of my life for so long & I always ... I was just going through my old journals & he's always in there. I just ... I'm very happy with him. The biggest issue is that he has an ex girlfriend who won't leave him alone. I've been in her shoes, & ... I'm just worried he'll choose her over me. It's making me crabby. He also lives pretty far away & it's hard for us to see each other because he works a lot. I wish he & I could spend more time together, because I really really really like him. I'm in like with him. I probably have been for a very long time. But I was right, if I saw him more often than once a year I'd like him. I really do & it's crazy. I'm sorry I'm so mumbled, I just ... I like him so much. I can't spend enough time with him. I want to be with him all the time. He is so warm. I am always cold, but around him, I am warm. He thinks it's because I'm embarrassed, but it's really because I'm not used to being so warm. I love it. The only problem is that without him, I feel cold all the time & I've been getting chills ... it may be best if we don't see each other too often ... that way I don't become too used to his heat. ;) Goodness I miss him & I saw him on Thursday ... Really grandpa, he is a wonderful person. He cares about me, which is enough. More than enough. I just don't know what to do if he chooses Lizzy (his ex) over me. I can't imagine losing him ... It scares me beyond reason. I'm not used to this grandpa. I haven't dated anyone since Isaac when we tried 3 years ago. He has been my first kiss since Logan also 3 years ago. I haven't let anyone into my life like this ever. My feelings were never this strong for Logan, nor for Michael, or Andy. He has me wrapped around his enormous fingers. I wish you were here to meet him, I know you'd like him. He's a goof just like you. ;) Give Grandpa Saponara a hug for me. Keep watching out for me & please guide Isaac & I's relationship. I miss & love you.
Love,
Me.