Dear Grandpa,

Today was the big family get together & I guess I just couldn't stop thinking about how much you should be here. I teased Steve about his grey hair & I imagined you reproaching me about making fun of older men. I wish you were here. I want a grandpa & it's just really hard to think that I never got to have one. It's not your fault & it's not my fault. It was your time to go & I can respect that ... I just wish I could have gotten to know you. Everyone is always so sad that their grandpas have died but ... they're the lucky ones. At least they got to have the experience of having a grandpa. Mom wants the computer so I should probably go. Thanks for being an ear. I can't post on my other blog because a friend of mine reads them & gets super offended so ... yeah. I miss you a lot.
Love,

Me

Dear Grandpa,

Hey I've only got a little time, but I want to say hi & that I miss you so so so much. It's times like this when I think a little old man wisdom would do wonders for me but ... I don't have any wonderful old men to give me any advice. I still like Andy. A lot Grandpa & it really stinks because he hates my guts. All I want to do is run up to him & tell him everything & apologize but ... I don't think he even cares about me ... or even if he ever did ... Also Isaac is EXTREMELY attractive now & I could really see myself fall for him ... if I saw him more often, but I only see him once a year so ... yeah. My heart is half aching half brimming with happiness & it's the oddest feeling in the world. I just wish I knew what to do or what to say. I wish I weren't so afraid of being shut down. I could use a little sign from you telling me I'm going to be okay. I could use some lovin'. ;) I miss you & love you so much. Please give my other grandpa a huge hug from me.

Love,

Me.