Dear Grandpa,

I'm drowning Grandpa. Honestly, I cannot relax, or think anymore. I lay in bed at night & I can't sleep, then I am spinning. I feel like I'm sitting on a spinner thing & someone just keeps cranking me around & around & I feel so sick. It's like I'm breathing laughing gas, but I (being the opposite of basically everyone else) just feel like vomiting all over the place. I'm scared Grandpa, & I just get more & more afraid. I have dance next period Grandpa, & I know that I'm just going to feel worse when I go there. I keep falling further & further behind & the world just sits there & watches me. Then there's this guy in my show & I am going insane over him. His sister & mom are good friends of mine, & I look at him & I honestly cannot help completely crushing out on him. But he's 20, & he lives in Hudson, Wisconsin & ... I feel like he is never going to notice me or anything & I just want him to kiss me & ... yeah. My hormones are going crazy. I miss you.

Love,

Me.